Overcoming narcissist abuse, by Elizabeth Shaw.
No contact if you can, is always the best method for recovery.
If you have children, grey rock.
Do not give them reactions, and do not go back, safely get out and safely stay out. Now because of all those highs and lows, that leaves your brain with the trauma bond, because they can play nice some times, and perhaps we don’t want to admit to ourselves that people like this exist, especially if you have children with them. To begin with, it’s incredibly hard to stick to no contact, especially when they come back all sweetness and light, or you have children and you want them to have a good parent, so you reach out time and time again just to be slated.
You’ve changed for them so many times, you’ve tried to communicate so many different ways and nothing works. So what works with these people.
Every villain has a nemesis,
With a narcissist, it’s no reaction, their souls slowly wither if they are getting no reactions, no doubt they go find it elsewhere, but, no reaction is the karma, they hate it when you treat them to the silent treatment they taught you oh so well. I slipped up with this lots to start as I didn’t have the understanding or awareness of who they were and believed they truly cared for the children, not they were using their own children to counter parent and get to me, at some point you learn, you do get it and life becomes so much more peaceful, I actually ended up at one point looking at them with pity, knowing they can never find true happiness. The narcissist’s karma, for all they put you through.
A narcissist wants to be the star of their own movie, the also want to direct, edit things out, choosing the audience, yet without an audience that movie is nothing.
So to movies I used to help me stick to grey rock, boundaries and routine, at the beginning no matter what the narcissist throws, plus lots of counteracting that negatively they used on the children, teaching the boys about opinions, boundaries and routine without bad mouthing the narcissist to them at all, they get enough of this from the narcissist. as the children still visited that narcissist at that point, until things got dangerous. limited contact is a must for their mental health. Some children can not have contact if the safeguarding is too big, I’m kept a very close eye on the boys in case I could no longer counteract. The narcissist took it too far and I was advised no contact.
Gremlins, if you’ve seen it. I like to think upon my ex-narcissist as that loveable cute gremlin, that you have no choice but to walk away from simply because if they are not looked after properly they self destruct because they have little self-worth deep down. They don’t know how they want to be treated so, you’ve got no chance of doing that right, you also don’t need a toddler throwing a massive tantrum all the time in an adults body, which is basically what narcissists do. They spit the dummy out at every given opportunity, leaving you feeling confused and crazy.
What are the rules? no water on the gizmo. What happens when water gets spilt on the gizmo, they multiply and five more forms from gizmo back. The trouble makers led by stripe.
Narcissists, what are the rules? don’t question them about any wrongdoing. They have multiple personas they go through, and throw straight back at you to avoid accountability. Perhaps you have evidence, wow they’ll still deny it all, twist it onto you. How it goes down, you probably remember all too well.
They go through.
Blame shifting, projection, word salad.
Then comes the anger,
Then comes the rage,
Then comes the silent treatment, which of course if you are the one to cave, grovel and apologise at any point they might stop. If not they’ll pedal through them all until the silent treatment drives your thoughts crazy, you believe you were at fault and you apologise.
Gremlins rule, don’t feed after midnight. When fed after midnight they turn into the nasty gremlins and torture poor gizmo,
The narcissist after the golden period, if you criticise them, either without even knowing because of their own insecurities or if you try to have a rational conversation about something like normal people do. Where they believe you are wrong, They start with all of the word salad then, if you react it’s all your fault, if not, they cycle through the, blame shifting, anger, rage and silent treatment. slowly but surely, small subtle things to torture your own mindset, so you end up not knowing if you’re coming or going, not knowing if you’re right or wrong, even believing your the crazy one, believing you’re in the wrong, they keep going until you conform to their ways and their demands, then when you do, they move the goal post as they themselves don’t know what they truly want, all they know is manipulate and control. So they up the game on you what was right last week, is no longer right this week, no matter what you do, it’ll never ever be good enough for their own tortured souls, they don’t think anything’s wrong with them, to them everybody else is to blame for all their problems, love will not fix them. You can not help them.
Or just like spike in the movie, who cuts the power to the alarm clock to trick Billy into feeding them after midnight, then cacoons appear out hatch the monsters that torture gizmo and try to kill Billy’s mother.
Narcissist, try to cut you from all friends and family, from your support system. trick you with gaslighting and manipulation, to slowly torture your inner soul without you even knowing, slowly but surely changing your mindset, so your left full of insecurities, self-doubt and a shell of your former self you try your best to please them, conform to them, killing of who you truly are.
Gremlins, bright light hurts them,
Narcissists your knowledge hurts them when you start waking away from that trance they’ve manipulatively placed you under, back comes that cute little gizmo and the golden period, just long enough to manipulate you some more and to send you under again. Some more highs and lows to strengthen that trauma bond and boom stripe is back,
Whilst a narcissist is getting supply from others, just like spike in gremlins, the narcissist keeps going tormenting new people to get their needs met.
Sunlight kills gremlins.
Exposing a narcissist takes all their false self away to all those around them, which kills them on the inside as they live off that false persona.
So when you do work them out, they’ll be fast to smear your name, keeping themselves unaccountable, they will discard you. They will threaten you.
If a narcissist hasn’t got others lined up to draw emotions from, with some even if they have a new partner if you walked away they’ll still come after you. no reactions from you or anyone is like sunlight was to the gremlins.
As they are left with their own tortured soul.
So when they reappear, so cute, so loving so kind, so caring, promises to change, stick to grey rock or no contact if possible.
One day you’ll look at them with a what the hell was I even thinking? when you know how ugly they are on the inside, you realise just how ugly they are on the outside.
They are vampires in the flesh, no not the Edward out of the twilight, more of the Arlo.
They literally suck everything from you, stealing your mind, your heart, your belongings and some even manage to keep the children from you, we know that children are not our property or theirs, yet they take your rights away to nurture and raise those children in to happy healthy adults, if this is you, get better then fight all the way and get those children back under a safe loving roof.
They might not suck your blood, but they might as well, as they leave you so drained and tired you’re lost, I was hit with illness after illness whilst in the depths of the relationship, from pneumonia and pleurisy. To food poisoning, Campylobacter. My own dad actually asked at the time if they’d poisoned me, which was a joke, but with these people, who knows what truly happened, please be careful. The narcissistic personality disorder is on a spectrum, What was worse I was wiped out for months? Yet I had to carry on with work, household chores and taking care of the children. As of course I was the one paying all the bills. That was perhaps one of the hardest times of my life, I learnt that no matter how hard life can be, you can always make it through whatever life throws at you. You may not always see the lesson at the time, but no matter how hard, you’ll see one day, you’d not be as strong or as wise if it wasn’t for your past. You truly are an amazing, loving, patient, kind person, for trying to help the narcissist, but unfortunately, you can not. So now is the time to cut them loose, let them go, no contact or grey rock is a must for your own sanity.
A lady sat on a delayed train from Manchester to London, and started to write on napkins, divorced from her husband, diagnosed with clinical depression, no job and a child to take care of, she got turned down by 12 punishers, she kept going, that lady is j.k Rowling.
A quote from Harry Potter.
Dumbledore says. “ happiness can be found in the darkest of times if one only remembers to turn on the light”
A narcissist needs to steal your light to hide away from their inners darkness, you can not help them, you can find your inner light again and escape that darkness.
I’m not the most photogenic of people, but Here is, before I met the narcissist, in the darkest of days with the narcissist and a couple of months free, and then reclaiming my life and my happiness, it might help you to take a look back through your own if you’re thinking of taking them back, I didn’t find the middle photo until after recovery. I now truly understand why I could have looked like I was going crazy. Also why people informed me how much better I was looking once I was out. don’t repaint their colours, you can not help them. You can, however, help you. You will move forward to a much happier life, once your minds free of that narcissist. You’ve got this.