Overcoming Narcissist Abuse, by Elizabeth Shaw – Life Coach.
A narcissist relationship can leave you confused, full of self-blame and self-doubt, heartbroken, and lost to name a few, it can wipe out your old belief system to the point you no longer know who you are or what to believe. The internal conflict between the Jackie and hide characters the narcissist shows you can be crippling within your own mind.
What is cognitive dissonance?
This is a state of mind where your beliefs or opinions don’t match up with attitudes or behaviours, where you reality no longer match’s you’re beliefs so you’re always looking for ways to match them up, or you’re living two different reality’s.
One method narcissistic people use on people is cognitive dissonance. They learn who you are and what you like and dislike, what your beliefs are, they start by showing you the reality that they match you in every way, once you’ve fallen in love, they then begin to use it all against you in many ways, there are a few ways they use cognitive dissonance against you also.
First, they show you the reality to match your beliefs, then when their needs are not being met, they gaslight, silent treatment, provoke, blame shift and project. So you believe you did wrong, then they’ll so you that false reality that matches your own beliefs so you believe it was, in fact, you that did wrong, your mind becomes torn between the original reality, the intermittent reality and their bad behaviour towards you.
Second, because of the above treatment towards you, it causes a state of confusion within your own mind, as you fight the true reality of who they are, with the false reality of who they pretend to be that matches who you thought they were and want them to be, believing your at fault so your mind will downplay their behaviour towards you. Your left in a trance with your mindset not matching not trusting perceptions, people and your own self. As your holding two or more contradictory beliefs, or reality’s at the same time, it leaves you in a state of confusion, and often with anxiety, which they will use to gaslight you more, they’ll say things like. “That never happened.” And “I told you last week.” Or “you’re insecure.” And “you’re paranoid.” Which when you’re already full of self-doubt those words reinforce this, as your constantly looking for a reality check, yet especially if you’ve been isolated, that reality check is coming from the very person who’s sinking you.
They’ll happily watch your head go under the water, to offer you a hand and raise you back up, just to dunk you back under.
How do they do this?
You meet them and they love bomb you, through various ways, learn all about you, if you like flowers you might get flowers, you like movies you go to the movies, long two way conversations in the evening you get these, you’d like marriage and children they’ll make all those plans with you, message you call you, be there for you. Then at some point, it all stops, all you get is some half-truths. “I went to watch that for you, I don’t like it.” Or “we don’t need flowers.” Conversations turn into them talking about themselves, they’re no longer interested in you, that wedding most often never happens, if it does that the day or close to that everything changes. They’ll say a thing like. “You don’t do this for me.” You might get the first silent treatment. They will project all their faults onto you, you will then blame yourself, beg, plead, apologies, change to suit them and the nice narcissist returns, making your mind believe it’s you, they are all those nice things, only for it to cycle back to them showing their true colours, leaving you a little more confused each and every time, slowing losing who you are, slowly losing your reality and slowing losing your mind. They’ll then call you “crazy.” Or “you need help.” They reinforce In your mind it’s you. When in actual fact, it’s what they do to you.
As you experience cognitive dissonance, it makes your mind is hold onto two or more beliefs, reality’s, ideas or values, it causes a hazy mind, brain fog, when you can see the facts and the reality, yet it’s not matching those beliefs people find any reason or excuses to relieve the discomfort within their own minds, making incidents not as bad as they were, blaming themselves etc the psychological abuse received in this way, leaves you confused, full of heartache, with mixed feelings of betrayal and you feeling to blame.
The gaslighting they use against you. Gaslighting an insidious form of mental torture. It is psychological manipulation, where the narcissist plants seeds of self-doubt within your mind, making you question your own memories, perceptions and sanity. Which results In you having cognitive dissonance leaving you confused often isolated and going to the narcissist for reality checks, and they slowly take more power and control over your mind.
Our minds can self harm us more trying to remove this cognitive dissonance. By
Twisting our own truth, the reality feels to uncomfortable to bear, so our minds twist it, not knowing we are running away from the truth and it makes us feel worse, it’s the minds way of protecting itself from pain, temporarily, yet long term it causes more pain, our mind finds ways to eliminate facts, we don’t want to accept causing dissonance.
Evasion. Avoiding what we don’t want to know, creating a sense of denial within our minds, creating that dissonance.
Seeking validation, which is a good thing, unfortunately, that validation we seek is often from the narcissist, which only end up reinforcing That cognitive dissonance.
Healthy ways to reduce cognitive dissonance and get your mind back on track and working for you.
Write it out. Keep a written diary, write down the reality and facts exactly as they are no matter how painful, facing that pain and stepping over that pain will, in the end, free your mind from the pain it’s suffering now, every time your mind tries to tell you an easier story, read the truth out. Until you got reality in your mind and can naturally leave it in the past.
Speak with trusted people, those who will relate with you, let you know your thoughts are normal, why it’s happening and that it’s ok to think how you do, back to vulnerabilities. When good people open up and understand vulnerability within themselves, they can connect with others.
When your beliefs and reality don’t match, it helps to understand what your beliefs are and recognise the reality isn’t matching, instead of making excuses in your own mindset.
Change your beliefs, this can be hard especially if it’s important to you.
Change the situation, if the reality of the situation isn’t matching your beliefs, get out of that situation, leave it behind, it’s not working for you, it’s working against you.
Change your actions, whatever it is may have caused your feelings of guilt, pain, fear, step into those, and work through them, acknowledge them, don’t run if you run you don’t heal.
In future become more mindful.
- Keep a written diary.
- Read and learn new things.
- Talk with others.
Keep a track on your beliefs, if you need to change them you can If you need to change something in your life that’s not matching beliefs you can.
You can and you will recover from this.