Overcoming Narcissist Abuse, By Elizabeth Shaw – Life Coach.
Is someone in your life, or have you had someone in your life controlling you, without you even knowing it? You trust in others, believing and knowing we all make mistakes, yet we all love and care for each other, people surely don’t go around hurting and wanting to destroy others how could they? do they not have the basic compassion and empathy to care? unfortunately as a lot of you might already know, or coming to realise, if you were raised by a narcissist or had a narcissistic partner, some people simply only care about themselves only interested in meeting their own needs and what they gain from other people, then they throw you away like you never truly mattered to them.
This is the harsh reality many of us have lived through, and it’s truly heartbreaking and draining to live with, also draining and heartbreaking getting out. Once out and you recover life becomes much happier and much more peaceful.
You can and you will recover from this.
What is Coercive control?
Is someone angry at you and gives you dirty looks? Do they guilt trip you into doing things you wouldn’t normally do? Have they broken down all your boundaries? Do they make you feel as though everything is all your fault and they have done no wrong? Do they make you feel if only you’d change all would be ok and they wouldn’t behave in that way? Have you changed who you are so many times for them to please them, that you no longer know who you are? Are things going missing? Property getting damaged? Do you feel like your losing your own memory?
People’s misuse of your trusting kind nature when it’s given to the wrong hands is hideous and devastating, leaving you with so many things to heal from. When someone takes power over you and your loving kind nature, then manipulates you to exploit you and take control of your mind, from gaslighting to the silent treatment, then the projection to blame shifting. Screaming insults to the subtle hurtful comments, plantings self doubt deep within your own subconscious, allowing them to slowly take more control over you and your life, with intermittent plays of them being nice when you get something right, reinforces in your own mind it was you.
It was never you. All you did was be kind with good intentions. When a robber walks into a bank to steal money and through fear the cashier hands the money over, the cashier is never to blame.
Controlling behaviour and emotional manipulation take form in any relationship, from bosses at work, friends, family and partners, and also in many different ways, understanding cohesive control, will help you understand what you’ve been through, what you’re going through and how to avoid the same happening again.
The need to dominate can be passed down through generations, this needs to be broken and stopped now.
When children are raised with narcissistic Coercive controlling parents or parent, they either become, the lost child, the scapegoat or the golden child, whichever they fall under, they can either grow up to people please, never knowing who they truly are and ending up with one narcissistic partner after another, or becoming narcissistic themselves, some do grow to form a healthy love for themselves and go on to form healthy relationships. All who’ve lived through it and started to recognise this can heal and recover to go on and form healthy friendships and relationships.
Coercive control is mental, emotional or psychological abuse. In legal terms Coercive control is long term ongoing behaviour, where one person drip feeds another into losing everything, losing, friendship, family, money, jobs, children, homes, themselves and their reality. The manipulate slowly breaks down the victim’s personality, from breaking down boundaries, trust, health, self-respect, self-worth, and reality to name a few. From the onslaught of mind game after mind game, it’s like living in a war zone, the victims become confused and overwhelmed losing all sense of self, left with guilt, disappointment and heartbreak.
They look for people who have some qualities that they can offer the narcissist, what they can use the person for, They look for people who’ve been previously a victim of abuse, perfectionists, put others first, resourceful, empathetic, generous and kind, with poor self esteem and vulnerable, they test small boundaries at first to see if they can break them down, this is why you need boundaries in place, as those they cannot break easily to start they’ll move onto an easier target, some might try harder for you to break them, the more you’d stick to your no the sooner they’ll go.
The abuser will often state they can not control themselves, things like. “You know what I’m like in the morning. You know what I’m like after a drink.” Again putting the blame subtly onto you, the abuser is actually deeply insecure so wants to dominate and control to make themselves feel better within themselves.
What is Coercive control?
- Isolating from friends and family.
- Controlling finances.
- Forcing you to take part in things you don’t want to.
- Damaging property.
- Monitoring your activity and movements.
- Threats to publish things about you, or call police on you.
- Threats to harm the family.
- Threats to take your home.
- Threats to harm you.
- Repeatedly putting you down.
- Depriving you of basic needs.
- Humiliating you.
- Taking control of where you sleep.
- Stopping you from doing day to day activities you enjoy.
- Social media monitored or hacked.
- What you ware.
Examples of coercive control tactics they use.
- They monitor your outings, accuses you of things you haven’t done, cause arguments before you go out, or arguments when you get back, so you no longer want to bother, keep you busy so you don’t have time for your own hobbies. Play you off against friends and family, putting you in the middle and making you choose, often lying about what friends and family have said about you.
- The control your money. Either not working and using yours, or letting you believe it’s a good idea for you not to work them not giving you enough, yet not allowing you back into work.
- They will guilt trip you, triangulate you, shame you and pity play, to get you to break down your boundaries and do things you don’t want to do.
- They will damage property, from punching doors to smashing things.
- They can never let you have the last word, even if that means them sulking off and giving you the silent treatment.
- They call you names, call you crazy, insecure, sensitive, put you down in obvious overt ways. “You look fat in that.” or covert ways. “Are you really going to wear that.
- They use anger to intimidate you, or silent treatment to punish you if you don’t give them what they want.
- They don’t give you any choice in your life, by making you so afraid of their reactions, so your to scared of what might happen if you don’t do as they say.
- They don’t have the ability to compromise, it’s their way or no way.
- They claim to know what’s best for you and find ways to force you into believing they are right.
- They hide things from you.
- They will make excuses and lies up about any evidence you have against them.
When it comes to being in a relationship, normally you do things for the other out of love and respect as the partner would do for you. Like the washing up, going to an event. It’s give and take sometimes 50/50 others 80/20 and 20/80 and so on.
In a coercive controlling relationship it’s 100 % you doing all through fear, they might intermittently do things, but when you ask yourself what they ever truly do for you or did for you, and look at all you do for them, if it’s mostly you doing it all, you could be in a cohesive controlling relationship, or have been in one.
- Write down what truly happened, to put your memory and reality back, also to look through if you have doubts and want to get in touch with them.
- Remove the abuser negative thoughts from your mind, and start to put your own in, “I am good enough. I do deserve better. I am worth it.” And keep going until you have removed them and you’re thinking for yourself again.
- Start putting you first, when travelling on a plane if the cabin pressure drops, you are told to put the oxygen mask on yourself before you help others, you have to be at your best, now is the time to always be kind to yourself first, then be kinds to others.
- Get creative, write, draw, sing, paint, garden, play an instrument, find your creative side again.
- If you feel ok to do so, share your story with others that understand you, getting it out of your mind space, some people don’t want to out loud, this is normal, write it out and destroy it to get it out, or keep to refer back to.
- Connect with good people, reach out to old family and friends, you might have to ditch your pride for this, good family and friends will Understand and be there for you, step out of your comfort zone and find places to meet new people, surround yourself with positive people now.
- Dress how you want to dress for you, do the things you love doing for you and might have been stopped from doing them, go for that run, join the gym, hoover when you want, sleep when you want.
- Create new routines for you, remove reminders of them.
- Take control of your diet and exercise, just start drinking a little more water and taking a walk, yoga, meditation are extremely good, dance to music on your phone.
Keep going, you can and you will recover from this.