Overcoming narcissist Abuse, by Elizabeth Shaw.
The narcissist may take a long time to hoover, some can be days, some weeks and some years. Some of the lesser may find it too much effort to even bother.
If you managed to get out, or if they left you, with the trauma bond and possible CPTSD, your left with endless wounds you have to heal and overcome and it is a long, hard incredibly draining journey at times, but please stick with it. It will become so much easier. You will get there, you will find your happiness again, it just takes work from you.
With the trauma bond, you are weaning yourself off a drug, those around you that haven’t been through it, will not understand, so join support groups of people who have been there. Any question you ask, someone will have been through the same or very similar, it’ll help you to understand you’re not alone, also how you think and feel is normal.
Narcissistic relationships cause a whole lot of damage that you have to heal, I understand and know exactly what you’re going through, I also understand those around you that haven’t been through it, telling you to just get over it, do not understand it’s not a normal break up, if you have children with the narcissist it’s even harder as you can not just cut the narcissist out, also the narcissist will be using those children to further their destruction of you .
They will not give you answers or conclusion as to what happened, they want to keep you confused, if they know they are doing it or not. So the best step for you is to research, phycology and the narcissist personality disorder.
It’s not all your fault, no matter what you do, no one deserves that kind of abuse, so no matter how many times they blame you, you need to remove that thought from your mind.
You are most likely an empath and you most likely changed yourself so many times, until you lost who you were to make the relationship work with the narcissist.
Now you know about narcissism, Some of you might be waiting for the hoover, even though you’ve been back before, just to validate they are a narcissist, narcissistic or not, abuse is abuse mental or physical so you need to get out and stay out.
You might be waiting for the hoover, so you can tell them where to go and give yourself the closure and the grand final of the relationship that never truly existed in the terms of a relationship more, sunken ship, with the narcissists that only aims to take everything away from you so you hit rock bottom and have to fight with everything you have just to reach the surface again, dodging them trying to dunk you straight back under.
When the narcissist appears to hoover you, human nature can make you intrigued, personally, I would recommend, no contact or grey rock and stick to it but you have to do what right is right for you, so if you do acknowledge them, remind yourself, they are abusive and they are a narcissist.
Because we were at the time co-parenting, I listened to how my ex-narcissist went around the manipulation tactics of the hoover, for the third and final hoover they tried, I didn’t yet understand fully they had NPD.
The day they had a new child, they wanted to marry me and have a baby with me to fix our relationship. That was a firm no from me, then they wanted to go to counselling, that was also a firm no from me, they then went on to how it was all my fault they’d got a new child, because I wouldn’t take them back, as they’d left 18 months prior to live across the road, to hoover 5 months later, to only getting co-parenting, so they blamed me for again going back to what they left, as it had all been one big mistake. My five-year-old after visiting dad would come home after a visit all over saying. ”daddy says its all your fault, and he would live here if you’d let him.” parental alienation.
I decided from then on its time, to love my life and stop letting the narcissist triangulate us.
Unfortunately for her, this meant within a matter of weeks he left his mothers and moved back in with her, after ignoring her for the whole pregnancy, I hope she gets out soon and heals, as I know too well all the stuff she’s going to go through, I also understand we have to wake up and see it for ourselves, a small part of me hopes she can make it work and he can changes. As I’m in a great place now, apart from when the narcissist mind games the children, but after the latest we are now, unfortunately, no contact, which of course after two weeks of not responding to messages of picking the children up, then seeing them, for the boys to come home and inform me more of the rubbish he’s put into their minds. It’s all my fault, and off to mediation we go, I will keep you informed.
The narcissist will never be accountable, they will not see what they’ve done to cause any of it, they’ll not even take 50/50. They may false apology, but they will still turn it all around onto what you’ve done.
Narcissist hate being alone and have to jump from one relationship to another, whilst it’s working and they’re getting positive vibes about how amazing they are with the new partner on a whole they’ll leave you alone, as soon as that mask slips, they come back and test the waters, first so they can get all your emotions and feel better about themselves, second to make the new person feel horrendous as you once did, and third to play you off against each other to fight over them and give the narcissist all the attention they need.
The narcissist is incapable of loving or caring about you, they don’t deserve you, the best way to handle a hoover, grey rock if you have children, no contact if not, trying to do anything else, will result in slowing your recovery and they’ve already taken up to much of your time.
Keep going, keep positive, stay happy, it gets a little easier each day, and soon you will be your happy new found self again.